came back from redang yesterday and I'M TANNED LIKE MAD. omgomgomg it's gonna take centuries to get fairer. I SHALL STAY INDOORS FOR A FEW YEARS.

snorkelling was fun. too bad i couldn't take any photos. the big fishes scared me at first. and there was a school of fishes. the kind you would usually buy at the pasar and steam it for dinner. the kind which is triangular. the kind with big scary eyes. they scare me. guilty conscience maybe?

everything was okay, except for the accommodation. okay i sound like a princess now and i feel bad for complaining. but it really was bad. worse than the one in tioman ._. the bathroom didn't have proper tiling. it was plastic. yes. and the toilet leaks.

first step into the room and i felt a gush of uneasiness. maybe i was thinking too much, thanks to the ghost movie i watched the previous night. -_- i have more to complain about but i won't do it here. so the first night, i woke up at 4am. i don't know why, maybe it was because of my grandma's variety of snores. but i woke up, feeling scared.

second day, went snorkelling, played at the beach, yada yada yada. and to my own surprise, for the first time, i sang in public! outside of school, that is. :D omg damn proud of myself. *hugs self* then there was this guy from china who has the SEXIEST voice ever. after kyuhyun i mean. he sang jay chou's ju hua tai and OMGGG. *swoon* he sang like a singer. better than jay chou himself. and on top of it all, HE'S CUTE. ahh.. if only he knew how to speak english.

after that talked on phone for the longest time. one and a half hours. die lah. digi sent me an sms telling me that i'm 80% on my way to getting my line barred. :D yay me.

no pictures. all in facebook. oh some narcissistic ones are with me. which i won't upload. ever. they're for my eyes only. blehhhh :D

throughout this trip, i realised a lot of things.
1. you don't really care, no matter how many times you say you do.
2. everyone needs someone.
3. i hate brown.
4. i fell in love with a boy. his name is jie han.
5. colourless, dead corals somehow freak me out.
6. some people whom i've never given a second thought of, actually care for me.
7. some people whom i thought would care, don't.
8. my mum is afraid of swimming and would scratch the hell out of you if you tried to let go of her in the pool/sea/the likes.
9. i should just give up already.

who's jie han?


that's him. <3

life these days, not very exciting i must say. everyday work work work. :( but some interesting things happened though.

1. i started talking to my primary friends from sri garden :D like.. benny teh. the one who got bullied by andrew lee in standard 2. just like i did. :( andrew was the devil, really. didn't know i could experience a preview of hell at the age of 8. oh, and jonathan too. i can say that he was the one i hated most throughout my life in sri garden. xD but we're friends now :)

2. they (being benny and jonathan) introduced me to iSketch! it's damn fun and funny :D especially when benny and i cheated, leaving jon to survive on his on ahhaha.

3. http://unlessyouareinvitedhehe.blogspot.com this person is a damn good writer. :D but apparently only her trusted friends can go to her blog. and i so happen to be one of them.

4. redang... don't know if i'm excited about this.

5. going to singapore AGAIN on the 8th of october. probably gonna spend a night there. AND GET MY NEVERFULL BAG <3 hopefully.

6. i think it's easier to write in point form.

7. MALCOLM, are we going out on friday next week? HEEHEE.

8. i wonder how it feels like to act as a fake girlfriend.

9. also wonder if you still have feelings as a person.

10. when are the year 11s going out again? :(

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
There was a girl

who hated herself because she was blind.

She hated everyone,

except her loving boyfriend.

He was always there for her.

She told her boyfriend, 'If I could only see

the world, I will marry you.'

One day,

someone donated a pair of eyes to her.

When the bandages came off,

she was able to see everything,

including her boyfriend.....

He asked her, 'Now that you can see the world,

will you marry me?' The girl looked at

her boyfriend and saw that he was blind. The

sight of his closed eyelids shocked her.

She hadn't expected that.

The thought of looking at them the rest of her life

led her to refuse to marry him.


Her boyfriend left in tears and days later wrote a

note to her saying: 'Take good care of your eyes,

my dear, for before they were yours, they were mine.'


life's unfair just like that. :(

a very cliche phrase:

if we were to live until the age of 100, i hope i'll die at the age of 99 years and 364 days. so that i won't have to live a day without you.

what i personally think,

if we were to live until the age of 100, i hope you'll die at the age of 99 years and 364 days. so you won't have to feel the pain of losing the one you love.